I feel overwhelmed... as taking the some of the tests was a real eye-opener for me.

I've read the disclaimer that I should post my thread in the appropriate forum, but as a new member with oh-so-many issues, I really don't know where to start. It's almost like, "It's too hard for me, I can't get help, I'm a mess... I might as well give up." That's the way my mind thinks, I'm not looking for sympathy, just a little direction.

Here are my issues:
- Major Depressive Disorder: With suicidal idealization.
- Generalized Anxiety Disorder: Possibly agoraphobic.
- Body Dysmorphia Disorder: History of Anorexia and Bulimia and Binge Eating.
- Borderline Personality Disorder: *just took the test on PsychCentral today, never been officially diagnosed.
- ADHD: Another PC test result.
- OCD: Very likely as I obsess about my religion (Christian) and how much I fail God and that I am probably going to Hell.
- Relationship issues: Gaslighting, Co-dependency (but I don't want to admit it, because I'll have nowhere else to live.)
- PTSD: That goes way back to my early childhood and the dysfunctions of my life never cease to quit.
- Somatic Symptom Disorder: Self-Diagnosed, of course.
- Severe Loneliness: No friends or family that contacts me... which causes me even more deep, dark depression.

Sorry, I know it's a lot... I just don't know what to do or where to go.