Hi! It's been a while since I've posted here. My previous pdoc no longer believed I'm bipolar after diagnosing me with BPD (she doesn't believe they're co-morbid for some reason..) but I certainly see a big difference now compared to before I was on Lamictal. I no longer get hypomanic. I no longer have drawn out periods of depression. I'm constantly switching moods (the BPD part) but there is no longer a distinct pattern. I no longer stay up for long periods of time without needing the sleep either. With that in mind, regardless of my pdoc's opinion, I feel those parts of my struggle have been stabilized! Now I need to work on the BPD, which I'm currently in DBT for.

My only fear is the possibility of Lamictal's effects wearing off eventually. I must say I do miss hypomania, as I typically experienced the euphoric type...but I'm aware it was a huge strain on my body and I'm glad to be without. It just pains me a bit to realize that much of the motivation I've had for the past 8 years were a result of my abnormally elevated moods. I also need to get a new pdoc since I recently moved, or I'm going to run out of Lamictal and that would be awful. Things are tricky because my insurance has run out, so this will be pricey on top of the costs for my therapy which is also being paid out of pocket (she does sliding scale, at least). Other than some financial concerns, I'm feeling a lot more hopeful.

I hope everyone else has been doing well.