bf is upset...his family is upset....my family is upset...bf doesnt know why i cant just ...be apart of the family....been so used to being alone, used to fighting, used to anger, name calling and controlling environments....cant stand so many other people, cant stand to be together, i cant stand expectations ....i created anger and hate in my family....now its starting in his....i cant seem to fit in anywhere....and for the benfit of others..i should just go away and never come back