Hi All,
I have visited with my T individually for 3 years now. Recently, I joined a DBT group that she and another T run. Here's my dilemma:

When I saw T doing her T thing with someone else in the group, something in me died. I can't describe it. I know that some illusion I had been carrying just crumbled. In the individual setting, she did her T thing with only me. I realize she makes a living doing the very same thing with many other people. When I say T thing I mean active listening, paying close attention, etc.

Is is the illusion that she cared about me that died? That I was somehow special? And I know I no longer am -- that I'm just one of the "many?" Jeez, I feel like such a child. Frickety, frack, fruck! This is just a big pile of horse manure!

Please provide me your viewpoints. Come one, come all.
Thanks,
Okie