no one will know me.. i don't post here much but,
i'm in crisis
i'm about to %#@&#! up
about to buy liquor.
actually i drove around last night to 2 different supermarkets before realizing they don't carry hard liquor like in cali..

wnet out agiain this a.m. in search of a liquor store.
instead i ended up crying in front of the drive thru lady at a burger king buying a coffee instead.. so embarrassing, i couldn't get it together..

the only phone number i still have in my head is licia's.. my old therapist that i stupidly got too attched to. god.
who do i call to keep me from calling her?

the coffee tasted like such %#@&#!.. if they'd boiled it anymore it woud actually be dry.. so i came home and made a cup of coffee and signed on here. i don't have anyone. it's been more than 2 years.
ghost