Eden you need to eat. If you are worried that the food there is not safe, ask someone you know that you can trust to make and bring you food. Then you will know it is safe to eat. I have had my dad and my husband bring me food while I was in the hospital before and they never let it out of their sight and would sit and eat out of the same container as me...and I'm still alive and so are they. So no poison. Royalty used to always have food tasters, who would eat and drink from the same containers, so no one could poison them...so even if they are not able to make you food daily, maybe they can come visit during meal time and be your food taster...that way the Dr's know someone outside is making sure they don't hurt you and they will have to give you safe food. Hang in there, Eden...I know it is scary now, but the sun always rises and it can't rain all the time...it will get better soon. I'm praying for you.