wow DR i totaly feel for you first instinct is a huge hug. im glad you got to the root of your anger and cutting. i had a best friend who did that i thought she was trying to kill herself but i was wrong she just wanted to take away the mental pain by causing pysical pain. so i understand in only the way an outsider could . i think we all go through things that alter us as deep down as our souls... sorry for your pain. happy for your breakthrough.-onyx