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Originally Posted by shezbut
I feel so complicated. I don't seem to fit in, wherever I go. For as long as I can recall, I've struggled with these feelings. I cannot bear the thought of struggling like this for the rest of my life! 
In this room, we all fight PTSD. But, does it ever go away? Do people get "all better", or is it a lifelong sort of illness? I hate to refer to cPTSD as an "illness" (because I feel like that implies that something is wrong with me), but it sure isn't a walk in the park either. 
I don't know what I'm saying here. I just feel hopeless. And I'm SO tired of feeling this way! |
Yes we are all struggling here and are at different points in our journey. At first I couldn't believe I couldn't fix this on my own, then it was hard to deal with T's and therapies and I wasn't feeling any better, then the medications...my gosh something has to work, but not always sadly. I think at some point we may feel a little better and that's as good as it gets. But that's not bad, we just have to work with what we have and move forward. No one is perfect, right. Why should we think we have to be? How's the job going? Congrats on that! Life may not be what we want but at least we have it, it may never be like it was or it might be better one day. We keep moving forward and trying to find ways to improve ourselves, for ourselves. Take care.