i really think you guys are on to something with this. i had never really thought of it. Going away he really had no hope of being able to make the connection more solid. By the time he gets back, i've already cut the ties. i have to. Don't know how to survive alone and keep connections. i pull in and protect myself. Can't leave a raw place open. Connection doesn't stay, it gets ripped off, leaving a hole..

i don't want to dance.. i'm afraid of dancing like that. i want to be held but i can't allow it. But that's the point in the end. Whatever pushes you into therapy, that is the ultimate end.