Hello shut-in: No, no, no... you're not an attention-seeking loser! And, yes, you do need to reach out for help in real life. From what you wrote, it sounds as though you may be struggling with some depression & perhaps generalized anxiety. But this is just a guess on my part. Diagnosing what it is that is actually going on with you is a job for a mental health professional. So I would suggest starting out with a counselor or therapist... someone who has the training & the experience to help you figure out what is going on & to develop a plan for dealing with it.

I see this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to PsychCentral… from the Skeezyks! I hope you find the time you spend here to be of benefit.

PsychCentral is a great place to get information as well as support for mental health issues. There are many knowledgeable & caring members here. The more you post, & reply to other members’ posts, the more a part of the community you will become. Plus there are social groups you can join & chat rooms where you’ll be able to connect with other PC members in real time (once your first 5 posts have been reviewed & approved.) Lots of great stuff! So please keep posting!