I'm sorry you all, but it's like we've hit a wall. Short of winning the lottery, I cant live as myself. There are social, public, family barriers plus the internal ones. At least I have no more friends to deal with. The moment I do go over that one last hump, I lose my job, life, and any meager funding. This is a matter of survival....but I'm so close to not being able to live this way much longer.

Its been a severly depressing weekend. I'm at war with myself and the world and it is so vexingly tiring. At least my doggies love me before I feed them. Sigh.

Just a rant. Thanx for not barring me.