Thanks to everyone for the words of encouragement. I hope I can stay strong. I have tried to leave multiple times over the last year and I have been finding it rather difficult. Mostly because when I have tried to leave and addressed leaving with him he has always talked me out of it or sweeps it under the rug then pretends I didn't just say I no longer wish to return. One time I finally thought I got away because of how we left things by the end of session. I finally did it and felt like I didn't need to speak with him anymore after that. The next day he reached out to be via text message. I considered ignoring the text and did for a couple of hours but then I caved because in my head he went out of his way to text me and ask me if I was ok. An issue of mine has always been I can't hold firm with people and I have a bleeding heart. It's a huge flaw of mine. I gave in, tokd him not to cancel my appointment for the following week (like I originally decided on in session), then we hardly discussed it when I saw him. I don't understand why he couldn't just let me go. I thought it was unfair that I was sucked back in after it took so much courage to decide my actions and hold firm to them.