urgh, how are you supposed to be able to relax when you can never remember anything?

no wonder im like this, maybe anyone that was constantly questioning what the hell is happening would be all bent out of shape :grrr

and it seems sometimes it takes just the smallest things to really make you realize WTF!

like where the hell did my lighter go, i have looked everywhere and i just know where i put it and know that its gone now but can not remember where in the world it is...... all i know is i remember putting it here in front of me on my desk and thinking "i bet ill knock it off the desk and behind it and lose it and not be able to find it when i need it" and then i remember thinking something like "ill put it somewhere i know where it is when i need it" and im like WHAAT - i know i didnt put it anywhere else, and i dont know where i would of put it to find "when i need it" because i have looked everywhere
stupid stupid stupid stupid...

its not just a lighter, its everything, but damnit sometimes the small things just really irk my nerves because they are so bloody simple .. brand new lighter missing somewhere probably in the freezer or some stupid place...
yknow? -.-

so so so sick of this