Wow....you have experienced so many losses. I,too, lost my job because of a toxic work environment. Husband died years ago, so I was totally on my own. My childhood was meager and traumatic but managed to marry a great guy and we built a great life together. Then he died suddenly. Managed to keep working and keep home for many years until I had to retire early due to workplace harassment. Many traumas. Getting on in age. Live alone with my pets. Siblings have lives of their own....no time for me. Very lonely sometimes but trying to grasp being my own best friend. Long story short.....obviously you are a strong, resilient person. You really are. Life can really suck sometimes....but we're going to grow from the hardships. Just keep on keeping on. You're going to make it. You'll see.