Hi. I apologize in advance if this was brought up in am earlier comment. I wasn't really able to pay attention to all the reading...

Do you think maybe some aspect of "relaxing" is a trigger? Either in that forcing yourself to be present in your body is overwhelming, or some of the steps to relaxing remind you of the trauma?

I've always had trouble with relaxation exercises. Breathing in particular has always been very triggering for me. Being told that it should help me calm down only frustrated me more. Then I was able to label the breathing as a trigger (something I used to force myself to pay attention to in order to "move things along" with my abuse). Once I figured that out, it was easier to tell therapists why breathing was the opposite of relaxing for me... it's still hard to mediate and be present in my body, but at least I know that I need to slip the part where I focus on breathing...