I'm having the worst birthday I've ever had. I'm feeling so down and depressed. Woke up and my toddler is sick all of a sudden and so am I. Husband got me nothing as usual. We had a spa day planned for tomorrow which is definitely a gift and a treat so that IS something at least, but I cancelled since I am sick. This made my husband mad and he slammed the door and is irritated with me for being upset. He's asleep now since he worked all night and I'm trying to care for my daughter. This is also the first week of our "vacation" since he's taking off work and I am so sad we are sick and just so disappointed and this is making my husband mad that I'm upset. I feel like nothing ever works out.

. I'm so depressed. I don't even blame him for being irritated I feel like I'm not deserving of anything anyway. I've had so many bad things happen in my life and I don't have much social support. I've just been so caught up trying to function with chronic illness that I haven't kept up with a lot of friends and its sad on my birthday when I feel really alone.. People can't even just type happy birthday to me. I just don't feel deserving and it sucks. Pretty much been crying all day and feeling like I'm so undeserving of anything which is why my birthday is like this and I'm chronically ill and a huge burden.