I understand. It is legal in belgium..for unrelenting depression and other mental health disorders. Its interesting to read about. Seems very compassionate and forward thinking to me.
I understand about the job . I used to work as a cashier in a large grocery store...I would check people out and smile while wishing I was dead all day. I remember wondering if I was the only one and how defective I must be..
the day came when I wasn't able to rise to the occasion and work there anymore. I didn't miss it either. The financial compensation was pathetically low...
I'm not saying quit your job...but I would give that a try before I took more permanent steps.
Only my thoughts....
Hope u get relief..

Northbelle