i'm identifying with you ariesmars... when my depression first hit, the hardest part was losing my social skills... i don't know if that applies in your case but not having or knowing what to say was a real dilemma for me... i'd been so social before...

it was worse when those feelings were new, but how did i know they would last nearly 30 years? over time while it didn't ever become something i accepted, i guess i grew more numb to it.

eventually i began resenting others for not being more aware, thoughtful, caring... a bad trap...

i've spent the last several years re-learning to love again.

while some conversations still %#@&#! me off because they are hurtful to others, i've learned to forgive in most cases. but perhaps your mind is tuned to a different wavelength than most common folk. don't let it fool you that its either good or bad. everyone brings something to the table.

could be you will be the one who suggests the idea that the "commoners" fail to think of... just an idea

many job environments can be depressing... hold out the hope that what is right will come your way...

i know we all hurt and want instant remedy, but it doesn't just happen that way.. you may need to feel the pain before it gets better... i wish it will happen quickly for you...

meantime, sounds like the pressure borders on unbearable... is there anyone nearby you can turn to? friends and family can be wonderful, but sometimes professional care is necessary...

sorry for the long ramble... keep getting interrupted at work... take care and post often if needed...