I was trying to go off of buspar. I was looking at the bird feeder and hummingbirds were turning into fairies. I'd see bugs fly by and when they got closer, they turned into birds.

It seems that each major depressive and/or psychotic episode has something unique that identifies it.

There was the time I went screaming out of my boss's office. That was at the beginning of the Iraq War and two family members in the Marines were going to war.

Meltdown works. Maybe one term doesn't fit all.

Now that I think about it, I think my doctor calls it the "active phase" of my disorder. I'm supposed to stay away from stress.