In the past if I canceled or if I wanted a therapy break she would try to talk me either out of it or through it. I've seen that she's been more distant for whatever reason and so now it seemed that when I mentioned my termination it almost seemed like an opportunity that she wanted to jump on. Now comes her busy time because her youngest starts school and she goes back to teaching either once or twice a week. Also most of her clients return during this time. Just expected more after four years. Especially with the fact that she's some of her life little events with me. She would talk about her family at times in session. Yes roughing it out is not as easy. I think prior to attending any type of therapy it was so much easier. Then with her I became attached and it was more difficult to pull away. I understand that it's a therpeutic relationship but was just expecting a different response. Her response is that it's not her role to make decisions about therapy and it's for me to decide and that if I don't talk then what's the point of going because otherwise I would be wasting my time. I wanted to reply back with a can you help me talk and due to her response and her recent behaviors I gave up. Perhaps it was best to end on that note than me trying to figure out how to pay for therapy and having to sacrifice more. It is a source of income to some but even with her I know she enjoys certain patients for sure. It's whether you're one of them or not. I get it.