I just want to stop feeling this way!!!

I want to just.... Stop feeling... Everything

I feel so incredibly alone... That leads to feeling incredibly pathetic.

I need people to talk to who understand.

I have one friend who's like a sister. She understands but is also busy. Hasn't answered my calls in a week. Maybe she's tired of hearing my bs.

I rather be dead. If it wasn't for my kids and my mother....