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Old Aug 15, 2016, 01:51 PM
Yismymindblank12 Yismymindblank12 is offline
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Member Since: Sep 2013
Location: Cincinnati
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I can never win, she lies in a hypocritical manner every single time she doesn't feel it's convenient for her when she put this on herself.

I thought she be proud I am moving out to be independent. I decided to move back, because I have a good girlfriend and I want to take responsibility of having a kid now. She is like no, you won't make money there unlike here.

I won't pay this or that. I never asked her to pay for anything. I already had it all covered a place to stay and work. I already decided to have my gf help me be independent together live together and we wanted to do this, because we can do this, but no.

It's inconvenient for her because of insurance rates are higher back in ohio than texas.

I couldn't say anything, she interrupts me tells me how it's all bad and puts words in my mouth that never were said assumes things takes everything out on me emotionally.

I am paying for my car insurance and when I can't pay for it, I can walk to work. I know what's going on. She never can trust me, she doesn't want to lose me.

She treated me like I'm the bad guy when I was little when I was abused so what the **** should I even care to bother trying.

Yeah she provided services and ******** and basic needs for me, but other than that she gave up as a mother all together.

Selfish, greedy, enjoys vices hopefully not drinking now, because she's getting too into alcohol recently. It's concerned me alot because my father is a fully recovered alcoholic and been sober since I was 3 so it be like 20 years.

She had a gambling problems spends all my hard earned money for gambling debts and other ******** I wasn't notified till I either caught her in the act or found out after.

I felt unloved all my life, my father was cool, but distant, but my mother is both distant, narcassistic and only cares about her self.

She pushed away my sister, and you know she was the main reason my mental health is garbage.

I put up with her treating me like dirt, telling me things like I'm mentally stupid in her eyes. Treating me inferior, my gf saw her back when she stayed with me every once in awhile saw my mother get upset with me, when I suffering in a lot of pain from my neuro problems, takes it out on me and shoves me to the side when I wanted her to help me.

My gf got very upset and was crying how badly she treats me. I didn't really think of it, because I was used to her **** for all my life.

A lot of my posts on here relate to me being and feeling unloved, because I feel when it goes right when I had it good with my gf, my mother wants me to stay by her and makes it damn hard and threatens me to get an attorney to keep my car for my insurance out in ohio and threatens me about how the irs will come after me and all this legal ****. That I'm pretty somewhat aware of on some things that are true and others that are complete bs in her efforts to scare and control me.

When I call her out, she whines, complains, gets mad and plays victim and cries. Always telling me how her kids, never appreciated her, taking small **** too personally and makes mountains out of molehills.

Too busy about her money and too busy about her life and ruining mine, too busy taking advantage of me and not letting me grow.

I wanted to die, because of her too, my financial state is so messed up because she doesn't want me to get by. She doesn't believe in me and she only cares about herself since ever.

My whole life, I felt the most unloved child and human in existence because I damn fought hard to get my mother to care. She doesn't despite what she says, people see a small picture, she cares in some areas, but not all of it not even close. She is a half *** mom, she is a hard worker, but other than that. She don't give a damn.

It's messed up my memories going to other families for their mom's to be living with them like they were my own. I had that happen plenty of times other parents parented me, because of my mother not taking responsibility. I wouldn't act out or anything like that, but I was disciplined in certain traditions or ways adopting different types of culture in other households mine didn't have.

So it was hard to me having to take someone else's family as my own and even friends to be parents to me, because I lacked their emotional love.

I can't believe any therapist or any one who disagrees and says my mom loves me.

I would rather die, than admit she did more than the bare minimum.