Hello Looseknot: I used to know a guy who was fond of saying: "If you want to know which way the bullet is going... look down the barrel of the gun." Re-read what you've written here & you will see your future with this lady. Is that what you want for yourself? Only you know the answer to that question.

I see this is your first post here on PC. Welcome to PsychCentral… from the Skeezyks! I hope you find the time you spend here to be of benefit.

PsychCentral is a great place to get information as well as support for mental health issues. There are many knowledgeable & caring members here. The more you post, & reply to other members’ posts, the more a part of the community you will become. Plus there are social groups you can join & chat rooms where you’ll be able to connect with other PC members in real time (once your first 5 posts have been reviewed & approved.) Lots of great stuff! So please keep posting!