It's tough. Even being in middle age I felt like I was an orphan. What I guess is, as with all other types of loss, that it will lessen with time. I don't have that lifeline I used to have. I don't have them to fall back on. That's how it felt. I got through it by being closer to the people I do have in my life: my spouse, child, and friends. I also discussed it in therapy.