I just started seeing a t-doc, yes. My 2nd session is tomorrow. I am going to see if she brings up the idea of an eval and medication. if she doesn't then I'm going to bring it up. I need an anti-psychotic and a mood stabilizer.

I don't know about "more memories" about my father. I remembered everything about the m*l*st*ation by older boys, never covered or repressed that; it never went "unaware" to me. I seriously doubt there's dirtier stuff I repressed there. But thanks for the input.