very bad experience...... coworker invited me out for a few drinks, surprised me into saying yes (i never go out to bars or anything). i ended up on the patio of this bar, smoking cigarretes and talking to this guy, seemed nice enough, whatever. i had alot to drink.... all of a sudden i go to go inside and the bar is closed. my coworker and her friends are gone. and here i am with this guy, 3am, no car, no phone to call a cab......... he offers me a ride home, what else could i do??? he drives me back to my apt building and i chat with him for awhile...... then he starts talking to me about his "hobbies" which are all sexual in nature..... finally i saied "i gotta go" and tried to get out of the car.... and he grabbed me and pulled my shirt up and started groping me.......i was so scared and opened the door and tried to get out, and he tried to hold me in the car........ i yelld "get the f*** off me" and got away from him and ran away.... felt like i was 13 all over again with my next door neighbor.......and again felt like my fault. fricking idiot, getting in the car with some stranger........ plus when i got inside i found my wallet was gone, id, debit card, everything......

how did i do this to myself? why was i so freaking stupid? i'm like a masochist or something.