Your son is going to be hurt worse by yiur staying with him & probably already has. Just read some of the problems people here write about as adults of alcoholic parents to see what your son will be going through later on in life. If you truly love your son, you will get him out of the environment you are in. If your H truly loved you, he wouldn't be treating you or your son the way he is doing.

No matter how hard you look there is NOTHING good about the marriage relationship you are in because the bad that is being done cancels out any small amount of good that could even possibly be there.