this isn't legal in england, and it pisses me off because if it was, i think it would be something i'd seriously think about (partly because i've tried so many times and can't get it right,) and partly because i just want it to work with no complications.

my only option are those clinics in.. is it finland?

well: they are out of the question because of fear of flying and agoraphobia

ugg i'm sorry.. why the hell am i even posting this?