I'm feeling more stable which led me to downplay issues with my pdoc yesterday and refuse yet another med change. I'm not even worried about my future moods. I'm honestly just checking out of my head and hoping for the best. "Buy the ticket, take the ride"

My biggest stress right now is my boyfriend's depression. His family is falling apart, and his fear of loss is crippling him. He is barely getting out of bed,if at all and talking wildly, drunkenly at night about his lack of will to survive. Rather his inability to survive any more trauma. I've been waking up panicked for the last 5 days.He is not medicated or seeing a therapist and will not be pushed to do so. There is a fair bit of injustice in that, as he fervently demands me to handle my own issues as such. It's ok.I'm only slightly resentful of that. Mostly I'm sad and terrified.
Lucky me, I'm resilient as f*^#. For now, I can just be supportive and hold onto the metaphorical guard rail.

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