I am in the same situation. I have things that I need to talk about but I don't trust my new T that much yet and we are still new and I would have to explain so much. I also wish I could phone my old T b/c I could talk about it and she would know the situation and she would get it so much better. Its hurts and I am sorry you are hurting. Its hard to start over but I hope your new T will be a good fit and you can talk to her about this. You never stop missing someone who meant so much but it is possible to move on with someone else who can be helpful. Best of luck to you!