oh nothing new

im just running looking for the answer, trying to figure out things and what to do...

trying so hard is really exhausting, but not being able to stop is even more so..
the inside wont come out, and the outside cant go in... so people see the surface and there is a calm collective that presents a well person, and underneath is the storm that rages that wants out but is under lock and chain to preserve my existence - its a war of the worlds, inner worlds

sometimes i wish that people could come inside, but most of the time im afraid of that and prefer to have it this way - but loneliness is not so great, but maybe its better to keep things from becoming more complicated and difficult

its always something to be faced with.. always a challenge behind every corner..
but i will be fine, a survivor survives... and i intend on it.. just hope that someday the survivor can become a "thriver"


stay well.. no worries, i'll be fine at some point- 1 step.. at a time, right foot left foot right foot left foot ..
i have my angels, as well as demons