I don't know how I'm going to get through the night or the rest of the week. i will call a hotline if I need to but I do not want to be hospitalized again. I've just been slipping back, I couldn't eat anything today at all, made some macaroni and cheese and ate a little but now I think I'm going to throw up. If I'm suffering in emotional pain and with physical problems and can't even eat why do I have to keep fighting this? I do not want to. I was doing so much better a few weeks ago and now I can't even remember what that was like. I don't even have anyone that I want to say goodbye to.