I'm worried my T is annoyed with me. I'm worried she's sick of me and frustrated with me and hates me. I've been feeling a lot worse lately, and I'm worried she's upset that I'm not better yet. I've been seeing her for almost a year now, and I'm still having suicidal thoughts and self harming. I'm so scared she's going to leave me, and I don't know what to do. I think she's frustrated that I don't talk more and open up more. I still say "I don't know" very often. Tonight we spoke on the phone, and she seemed annoyed with me. We spoke on the phone yesterday too, and I feel like she's annoyed that I'm so needy and annoying. She also seemed upset with me for not telling the people in the partial hospitalization program that I self harmed yesterday. I just feel awful and I'm terrified of her leaving me or hating me or getting sick of me. Please help.

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