ouch, hope it all comes back ok... that's a scary thing to read without having it explained to you... though if it helps at all, I went to one dr for abdominal pain, had tests run, and had a similar note in some of the results. I went to my regular doctor for a follow-up/second opinion. Eventually, after a few more consults, it all came back ok and the notation was revealed to simply be "covering all the bases" kinda thing... hope that's what it turns out to be for you.

funny how the medical community is slowly following sit with webmd, where everything ends in "it might be cancer"... :/ that really ends up ****ing with people in a bad way...

I used to feel like you about therapy, not wanting to need my T. I think it was because I was taught that needing anything at all was a weakness, something that would mean I was broken or defective (even if it wasn't something a fully competant person could dream of tackling on their own, like a broken arm or serious laceration)... Over the past few years though, t has been trying to get me to be ok with asking for help when needed. A crappy side-effect to that is feeling totally helpless around a lot of stuff. It kinda feels like my pendelum was stuck on the side of never needing anyone. T managed to help get that "un-stuck", but in the process of finding equilibrium, I've swung completely to the other side. Some days I can understand it's a learning process; that I will eventually figure out what is ok to expect to do on my own, and what is ok to ask for help with... It's the days that I find myself stuck in helplesshess and hopelessness that mess wth me... Guess it's another conversation I should bring up with T (what's the "expected" learning curve on finding a balance with needs)...

I hope your doctor is able to get back to you today and set your mind at ease.