For some reason, I get treated like it is okay for someone else to say or do something, but not me. Like, there has been times when I would make a joke and others would respond by telling me to never say that again. But then like a minute or two later, someone else makes that exact same joke, or one very similar, and everyone thinks it's hilarious. Same for doing something. Others may do something that is okay to do, but then if they see me doing it, they question why I'm doing whatever it is.

For example, one year I was helping freshmen move into the dorms since I was an orientation leader, and some other orientation leaders were using big carts to put stuff in. At one point, I saw an empty one just sitting in the hallway not being used, so I took it once I found out it wasn't needed. When the other orientation leaders saw me using it, they looked at me funny as asked why I was using it. I told them that they were using it as well so it shouldn't be a problem.

There was no rule against using them and were actually encouraged to be used. Just don't understand why I get treated like that at times. I don't know if it is a sign that they don't like me as much and they are showing it by telling me not to say or do something that is okay for others to do or what it is. Sometimes I feel like it is their way of making things difficult for me or showing their dislike towards me. Just find it confusing. It is as if other people are allowed to say or do something as they wish but if I do it then that is a big no-no.

It even goes for sharing ideas. Someone may say my idea of something was stupid but then someone else will have the exact same idea or another one very similar, and everyone loves their idea. I feel like it is a sort of alienation, trying to get me out of the loop or send a vibe that what I have to say or do is not welcomed. Don't know if it is because of the way I look or my hearing impairment of if somehow I come off as awkward without realizing it. Anyone else have this problem? Any way to get around it or fix it?