I can imagine the immense betrayal and pain you are going through right now. I don't know the background story behind this, but personally if a man that I loved and trusted did this to me, I certainly wouldn't want someone that irresponsible and heartless in my life.

Sorry, I can't offer words that are more consoling. I hope you can find a support network that is not connected to him so you can grow stronger and move ahead with your life.