I am sorry you are struggling. Have you explored in therapy your attraction to men who aren't really available? Although you maybe don't consciously seek them, there is a reason you attract them. You maybe think you didn't choose him but subconsciously you probably did. When I look back on to my relationship with men every man ( except my new husband who is kind of other extreme in a sense) were clones of each other: very successful in their careers workaholics with some other issues that would made them unavailable ( obsession with sports or extreme hobbies etc). Pretty much cloned of my dad. Seeing a t helped me to get to the bottom of it, wish I didn't wait until 48 to seek therapy

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