Okie, I've had a few delusions crushed in the last few weeks. It hurts like hell at the time. But you know while we hold onto the illusion that we are special to T and we cannot bear to think of her with anyone else, inside we are resenting ourselfs for holding this fantasy, because with that comes the idea that if T is capable of being bias to us only, then maybe we may fall out of grace with her and we could be the one on the outside whilst she's finding someone else special.

What is real is that really we trust someone that we see being caring and genuine with all people, we may not feel that at the time but its those insights that build the real trust..

If we saw T being rejecting to someone else, we'd get an immediate feeling of how great that feels, but inside we'd die a little knowing this person we trust can be prejudice..

I'm still not quite there yet, but I know the right thought is knowing T cares about everyone she commits too...