I have an opportunity to get a job doing security guard work. It is overnight for two nights in a row, so basically three days and two nights of my time. I sleep there in a room. I can't do anything I want to do and have to stay on site. No idea if people get reimbursed for sleep time or not, don't care.

I cannot get a job right now. No one is getting back to me. I apply to about three to five places every week, and that is all the resume and cover letter tailoring I can mentally handle. So this is not my dream job. It is the only one that called back besides a totally ridiculous auditor job where they don't reimburse your gas mileage.

Problem is I hear things. I wake up in the middle of the night and sounds morph into new sounds, I hear voices now... this happens many times a night and I had a sleep lab test done with 100% normal, so that is not the problem, even though it happens more often at night. It is almost like PTSD...anything loud or people moving too fast I freak out at. Diagnosed with depression and anxiety (and adhd) and switching around meds and stuff. I am anhedonic to the point where absolutely nothing is fun. I don't even want to be writing this really.

I have no idea how to keep a job like this. I go back to a seasonal job in January for four months...it is a job I can just barely do. The rest of the year I need something. I cannot do stuff where I have to be on alert while sleeping because the noises I hear...it would drive me ballistic. And I can't risk people's property or wellbeing like this.

No idea what to do. Looking for feedback. I have had mental problems since diagnosis at age 14, so enough case history to justify disability, but I am afraid to do that, too. Therapist says "wait it out." Boyfriend and parents pushing me to find work. Parents see why I have trouble, but boyfriend has no clue (and he is disabled and schizotypal with boundless energy and focus...which I don't have). I live at home but do my share and am secondary caretaker to parent who is very sick.

Has anyone been at this bus stop before and when does the next bus come?? I hate this.