Today it's 18th August. It has been 5 years since my first session with PrevT. I don't celebrate it. I was just looking at some old emails from T and I saw the email about my first session. It was also on a Thursday.
I haven't been in therapy for all those years. I had a break of about 1,4 years, when it went somewhat better with me. Until it got really bad. And I've been the past 5 months without her, because she's on maternity leave and vacation.

In the morning I've my session with current T. Our last session together because I start group therapy the week after, but current T is also one of the group T's.
When I'm in session with her, it will be exactly 5 years ago that I had my first session with PrevT. My sessions were for a long time on Thursday morning.

I don't know what I want with this post. I just felt I had to acknowledge this. It is something. Since the start of highschool I haven't had much people who were in my life for such a long time. I think maybe two other people.
That T is still away, so this isn't something I can share with her. And it probably won't mean anything to her. Stupid T's with having no feelings for their clients.