Hi jjgbirder
I'm sorry you've still been finding things tough

And the unmotivated bit..........do you think maybe you could set yourself some real small, managable goals to aim for..........
whatever they are!!
Not forgetting to give yourself
plenty of praise if you accomplish them!!!

And if there's a guidance counsellor, or the equivalent, on campus maybe they could help a little??
But sending you hugs and hoping today is/has been/will be a bit better of a day for you??
Alison