I have been moved back to the other ward after a bad night where i tried to hurt myself badly i was in the high dependency unit for 2 and a half days with no phone and i just moved out to low dependency they didnt want me to move and i had to promise to tell a nurse if i felt like i was going to try again i was on an order under the mental health act again for the last three days and they were going to extend in for another 11 days but i had to beg and make a bunch more promises for that not to happen. they havent said when i will be out yet only that i still have to take meds or they will force me i have managed to hide some of them though even though they thought i took them but other times i have not been so successful they have been giving me ones that dissolve in my mouth lately so i cant spit them out and i cant throw them up. that is annoying and they have increased the amount which also makes me mad but my mind is still racing and i still feel like i can do anything and i just plan to do what they say until they let me go then i will stop taking the meds and go back to what i was doing. i still dont trust the doctors they are going to hurt me but i feel kind of invincible right now so i kind of dont care in way cause i feel like i am stronger than them anyway not much has changed exactly i am just trying to pretend to be good.