Today, i had the first appt. of the day . I arrived and knew my T was not in. As I did not see his car. I went in and waited. He walked in 5 mins past my appt time. he immediately took me in. picked up a notepad and started the session.
it was a slow start, as i felt he was not prepared.
as i updated him on my past week, he picked up one small thing and just focused on that. it was not a pressing issue. the topic was out of place.

If he had read notes from a previous session, he would have known more about my updates, what was the bigger picture . what i had told him last week and how things had progressed. He would have remembered he had said we would discuss something in detail in next session, it would be helpful to me. ofcourse we didnt discuss any of it...nothing even close to it.

I did pay him, but i felt the session was a total waste. he was not prepared at all. he was in a different place.

this kind of thing has happened to me before a few times. where he is exiting with one client, and then takes me right in. with no break for himself, or to review the notes.

which makes me think..do therapists even prepare for sessions. how do they prepare?

i had no way of knowing todays sessions was going be this way...otherwise i would have cancelled and not wasted my time/money.

i wonder if T felt the same way, that he was not fully present and was not at his best.

i usually do lead the session and i was doing so, by updating him first. but he missed the bigger picture and focused on something quiet minor for the whole session. it felt like, dont bother me with anything else today. we are just keeping the session light as i have no idea what we talked about last week.

do you feel your therapist prepares for ur session? or just wings it .

I am not sure what kind of response i will get by saying the following...but i feel this was unfair to me. i did everything i was supposed to. (i came on time, i engaged, i paid, i left on time). T should have atleast read the notes from prev. session, if not that, he should have engaged more.
i pay $60 for every session, that is ALOT of money.

thanks for reading, i am just disappointed and wanted to write it out to see how common is this? once in a while is still $60 out of my pocket.