Hello OnTheVerge: I'm sorry you are having such a difficult time.

Med's have never done much of anything for me either. I don't take them anymore.

As a result I have had to find other ways to deal with my mental health issues. The difference between taking med's that don't work but create difficult side effects versus not taking med's at all can be a devil's choice, so to speak.
I see this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to PsychCentral… from the Skeezyks!

I hope you find the time you spend here to be of benefit.
PsychCentral is a great place to get information as well as support for mental health issues. There are many knowledgeable & caring members here. The more you post, & reply to other members’ posts, the more a part of the community you will become. Plus there are social groups you can join & chat rooms where you’ll be able to connect with other PC members in real time (once your first 5 posts have been reviewed & approved.) Lots of great stuff! So please keep posting!