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Old Oct 14, 2007, 02:41 PM
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Today, is such a beautiful day that after church I came home and changed clothes and went to work outside. In another post I mentioned about tearing down my dog pen. Over the years we had piled all kinds of cement blocks and misc., logs and what not, around the backside of the pen to keep my dog from digging out. So today, we tackled that part of the clean up. Hauled away 3 loads of misc.. and 2 loads of broken cement blocks. With that done I was thinking about planting some Hibiscus bushes, big bright red flowered ones, in that spot. Often times friends give me plants that I don't really know where I want to plant them, so I dig them in somewheres until the thought hits me as to where I want them growing around the yard. So I only have to look around to find something to fill another spot. So I plant and water when it don't rain and in the mean time let nature take it's course.
Yesterday, natures course was having my lawnmower refuse to run. Good and trusty and dependable for 6 years, but yesterday it retired for good. The tall grass and growing weeds gave a hearty round of applause.
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All my life I have know that I am different. I have trouble with my thinking and processing information. I have trouble in keeping close friends. I am afraid of living, and I don't really know why. I am good at pretending everything is all right, by just gritting my teeth and just charging ahead and getting through the rough spots, but inside I am afraid of failure and getting critized for things I do. I am hoping someone can help me, or at least understand me.