Current T had a break of three weeks and I felt I became a little bit disconnected during that time. But the first session after the break was just like always, like there hasn't been a three weeks break.
I have felt that the longer the break, the more chance I will feel more and more disconnected to T. But with PrevT and with current T, if I go in the room the first session after a break, it all feels like ''normal'' again. Like there wasn't a break.
The longest break I had was 4 weeks. Now there has been a break from PrevT for 20 weeks and I feel totally disconnected. My doubts grew bigger and bigger and now I'm almost totally convinced she doesn't like me anymore. She might be back at work next week. I've no idea how I will feel and react when I see her. I don't know if she will be my T again, but there will be at least a few session to talk about my feelings that have to do with her.

Current T gave me a small object before her vacation which could help me to keep the connection to her. I feel I can get disconnected really fast. And also jump in really fast like no break has happen. Not sure if that's good or.