I'm sorry things have gotten this bad for you. I think you may have made a very wise decision to notify your job that you just won't be there over the next week. (At least, I think that's what you were saying.) There is definitely such a thing as being too da=# depressed to cope with work. It's one less thing to dog you down for a few days.

Being alone with no emotional support is one of the worst things to try and cope with. I would not agree with your therapist that it might be fine to just make being content with aloneness your goal. That's not what you really want.

My own approach to going through lonely times was to sometimes drop the bar lower on who I would consider spending time with. It sometimes turned out that who I thought wasn't really going to be very interesting turned out to actually be quite interesting.

It's my own belief that one of the problems with therapy is that it conditions us to rely on the kind of intense interest that a therapist gives. I think it decreases the drive to get involved with other people because we get what I would call an artificial "fix" from sitting in a room one-on-one with a person paid to be totally interested in us. I came to feel it was like looking for love in an encounter with a prosititute.

I don't mean to sound hard on therapists, but they do us a dis-service when they allow therapy to go on and on for years, while nothing really changes in our lives. (I saw one therapist over a span of 19 years.) A therapist who terminates a relationship with you may be coming to the realization that you are just spinning your wheels in therapy . . . and they may be right.

Ease up on yourself and realize that sooner or later you will get a little surge of energy. Make a plan to do something that gets you around others despite thinking that you have no interest in them and that they have nothing to offer you. Often the biggest thing holding us back in life is an assumption we are making that we are actually wrong about.