when my T used to ask me about the future i felt suicidal. that went on for like 4 years. now i can talk about the future and feel ok... im not totally gung-ho about it but im more able to discuss it. i have more of a future available than i did years ago when T would bring it up... im still unsure about it all though. im 29 with no partner/kids/romantic interest in anyone. im working a retail job , im in school and will finish in may 2017. im trying to get off SSDI and get a salaried job with my education. those are my like....'societal' goals...goals that society thinks everyone should have (college, family, kids, 9-5) ..i still feel an urge to rebel against all of that. i ran away when i was 16. i actually WANTED to be homeless.

umm anyway im kinda rambling but yeh i get that feeling