Hello chubbyrainbows: Being transgender is something the Skeezyks has always struggled with as well. It just makes everything else all that much more confusing & difficult. I hate to say it... but seeing a therapist... (one who is experienced in working with individuals who have gender identity issues) might be of real benefit to you. It was for me for the brief time I did it. (Perhaps you already are?) Anyway, good luck with your school year. Please keep posting here on PC. It can help too...