When I first left home and was struggling to come to terms with sex and sexuality, I visited a few pornographic movie theaters and subscribed to Playboy magazine ... This went on for about 3 years.

But then I came across several news articles about how so many young runaways turn to prostitution and drugs and the adult entertainment industry because they'd grown up being physically, sexually and emotionally abused and thought that this was all they were good for.

Many had left the industry and gone through their healing and recovery processes and spoke about how they'd gone from one exploitation (leaving their abusive homes) only to be abused, preyed upon and exploited by others (those involved in trafficking, prostitution and the adult entertainment industry).

Needless to say, that was certainly a whole other kind of eye opener for me, and I decided that I didn't want to be one more person who'd derived pleasure out of another person's pain, suffering, exploitation and abuse, so I cancelled my subscription to Playboy and never set foot into another X-Rated theater again.

Since I don't know how to discern who is and who isn't a willing participant in this industry, and being a survivor of abuse myself, I simply cannot in good conscience watch something that very well may have someone being further exploited and abused by some trafficker, pimp, john, or polished professional that runs an adult entertainment industry or establishment.

That's all I have to say about that!